Posts tagged hooking up

I know I’m totally smitten with talldarkhandsome, but I STILL can’t get shyboy off of my mind (even though it’s been a year since we went out). I can’t tell if I still have feelings for him, or if I can’t stand him, or what - but I know I’m mad at him! I never got any closure or anything from our relationship, which makes it soo hard to move on. Even if I totally love my boyfriend.

I HATE SHYBOY SO MUCH! <—-that’s what half of me is thinking. We didn’t work out. Multiple times! So I have no reason to like him. Plus he makes my life miserable! I never have fun going out anymore, because he hangs out with all my friends and he always makes things super awkward… so I basically lost all my friends; I either don’t get invited places (“sorry, [shyboy] will be there and I don’t want it to be awkward”) or I get invited places and don’t have fun. He also refuses to acknowledge my existence.. he apparently hates me (which is understandable since I was a mega bitch to him) but he should at least be mature about it! There is NO REASON to exclude me from things (for example, there’s this “teen committee” thing that was just started in my school, and he invited like 50 people to be in it - all of my friends included - but not me!) and it’s really starting to get on my  nerves!

I’m running the annual Valentine’s Day candygram sales at my school, and I’m selling the cards during lunch all week along with a bunch of other volunteers. The other day, he bought one from me. Of course, he just HAD to buy one from ME when everyone else is selling them too! I’m assuming he bought it for this girl he’s talking to (she’s perfect - amazing singer, GORGEOUS Filipino, incredibly nice, etc. and we’re kind of friends) which I really don’t care about because I know her and I like her. So it was funny - he deliberately bought it from me to piss me off/make me jealous/whatever even though I don’t care - and I just casually explained the instructions to him (write your note on it, drop it off, the lucky lady will get a card/rose/chocolate, etc). I think that bothered him. Serves him right, he’s a bitch.

UGH I HATE BOYS. WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE SO FREAKING HOT???????????

It’s also kind of funny…. next Saturday is his birthday, and it just so happens I’m sleeping over talldarkhandsome’s house that night and we’re probably going to have sex. So I’ll be having a better birthday night than he’ll be having. Sucks for him. Bitch.

Thanks for putting up with my continuous ranting,

Baffled and Blonde~

Today is exhookupboy’s birthday! I doubt I’ll be writing on his facebook wall. Actually, scratch that.. I will NOT write on his facebook wall! I don’t care about him.. he’s history! I actually saw him the other day, for the first time since school ended. It’s so weird.. it’s like he never happened. That was almost a year ago……

So much happened this year, and even though he was a significant part of my life, it seems like I could forget about him so easily.

Except.

Without him, there would be no shyboy, since he brought us together. I wouldn’t have had the experience of “friends-with-benefits,” which has made me much more love-life-savvy. I wouldn’t have started sneaking around behind my parents’ backs, which means I wouldn’t have gone to any parties, or had my first sip of vodka/gatorade, or hooked up with anybody. I would still have only gone to 2nd base.

He kicked off my junior year with a kiss, and was the first in the chain of events that made this year so memorable.

I can forget about him all I want, but I’ll never regret it.

I should be thanking him.

Happy birthday!

Baffled and Blonde~

Boy updates….

1. Shyboy is playing “hard-to-get.” I think he knows I have a complete hold over him, but he doesn’t want to come across as weak. Except I totally know his plan, so it’s kind of backfires… but he doesn’t need to know that. We took a walk the other night, and just talked like friends. It was nice! He was glad we didn’t hook up saturday night - he didn’t want to, according to guybestfriend (I guess that goes along with “playing hard-to-get”).

2. Flirtyboy and I are still friends, I guess. I mean, he’s a flirt, so we flirt. But I don’t like him as more than a friend. Even though he’s really cute! But I’ve been becoming friends with some of his friends, so it’s kind of weird. Also, he records music with some guys, and I think they might ask me to do a song with them.

3. Promboy has a girlfriend now. Obviously I don’t like him or anything, but I just thought I should mention that. I talked to him on saturday. He’d be a cool guy, if he were into more than going out and partying. It’s okay though, we’re still friendly.

4. I still haven’t really talked to funnyguy since Junior prom when he tried to get with me (again). I’m fine with that.. he’s SO HOT but not really boyfriend/”talking” material. I’d hookup with him again, sure, if we were drunk (most likely), but I’m not looking to pursue it.

5. I haven’t talked to singerboy in a while. I miss him! He posted all his prom pictures of him and his girlfriend (UGH - I didn’t like her dress, but she looked perfect of course..) and the last time I talked to him was when I texted him to say how great they looked together (GAG). I think we’re trying to organize a class reunion, so we’ll see each other then. I hope.

I’m totally fine with being single right now, and I’m totally fine with shyboy playing hard-to-get.

I just tweeted “two can play at this game #leggo”

Because obviously, I’m going to win :)

Baffled and Blonde~

My friends and I talk all the time about “the phase” - it’s that time of a teenager’s life when they constantly crave parties, drugs, etc. I went through my “phase” earlier in the year.. but a few of my friends are convinced I’m reliving it. But I’m not. I’m not a huge fan of parties… but lately I’ve been trying to branch out, make new friends, etc., because summer is coming up and a lot of my friends are leaving!

But anyway..

Last night after the Greek festival my friends and I went to this sophomore’s house for a party. His uncle was there (and partying with us.. it was WEIRD) so we were totally chaperoned. It was great - he bought us beer, smoked with us, and made sure the cops didn’t come (it was actually kind of creepy, but I wasn’t about to complain). A lot of people were there - but I’d decided early in the night that I wasn’t going to hook up with anybody. I’m kind of done with that for now. A few memorable things did happen, though:

1. Shyboy’s rebound (the really hot one) hooked up with his friend all night! I met her, she was actually kind of nice.. it was weird. I wasn’t as inclined to hook up with shyboy once that happened - I’d originally planned to be all over him if she was hitting on him. Why am I a bitch..? :)

2. Crazybestfriend broke her boy fast - this is the longest she’s lasted abstaining from boys (it’s been a little over a week, I think)! There was this really hot guy there from another school who was totally hitting on her (and his ugly friend on me…EW) and I convinced her to go for it - I told her if she’s going to break her fast, it’s best if it’s a hookup from another school. She was kind of annoyed at herself for hooking up with him instead of this other guy (the other guy was more her type) but I think she was okay with it, because he was hot.

3. This douchey senior from my school tried to get with me… He’d actually be a great guy - somewhat attractive, athletic, smart, rich, popular - but he’s SO ANNOYING. The only reason I’d EVER even consider hooking up with him is to get back at this girl I don’t like (she used to fuck him, and then she fell in love with him, and he never actually liked her.. it’s a long story). But I’d never stoop that low. But he always teases me/makes fun of me/etc. and last night we were talking and his friend gave him THE LOOK* so I literally walked away from him (it was a great moment).

4. I talked to shyboy - but we didn’t hook up! One of my friends lectures me FOREVER every time he gets drunk to get back with shyboy, and last night was no exception. It’s kind of annoying, but pretty funny. We ended up talking, and kind-of-cuddling, but I didn’t kiss him. Actually, crazybestfriend and I tried sleeping over his house, but he had to get up early this morning so he couldn’t hang out (I crashed at her house instead). I think if I’m going to give our relationship another shot, it’s going to be SLOW and he’s going to have to start instigating. But I’ll see.

It was a pretty good night. I had a WEIRD dream.. but all is good! I like not waking up with any regrets or lost memories :)

Baffled and Blonde~

*THE LOOK: That look you give your friends when you’re going to hook up with somebody. There are 100000000+ variations of THE LOOK, but for hookup situations, girls usually make eye contact and raise their eyebrows, while guys usually give an approving nod.

After I wrote my last post last night, I video-chatted with flirtyboy for like an hour. We were both a little drunk and high still…. but it was fine. It’s weird, things with him are not awkward at all. I ran into him yesterday a few different times, and it was just like nothing happened - which is good!

It seems like my girl friends want me to keep going after him - they agree with me that he’s cute and nice - but my guy friends think he’s a mistake. They told me that on the “standards scale,” he’s lower than shyboy but higher than exhookupboy. But I don’t think I’m stooping all that low…

I know he just wants sex. And I’m not the type of girl to have sex with random guys (I’ll kiss random guys, that’s about it). I’m not a prude, but I have self-respect and I’m not going to throw away my virginity to someone I don’t care about (not that I don’t care about flirtyboy, but you know what I mean).

I think I just like having someone to talk to. Maybe that’s why I keep him around. Or maybe I just like the attention. Who knows?

Baffled and Blonde~

I did absolutely nothing all day today. I had to have a root canal this morning, and let me tell you: sitting under that dentist’s bright-ass light for 2 hours was TORTURE with a mild hangover. But the good thing is, my tooth is finally fixed!

I actually hung out with an old friend all day… he moved away to Delaware last year, but the driving age there is a year younger so he has his license - and can therefore drive back here and visit. We walked around town and caught up, and it was really nice to hang out with a different guy withOUT the intention of hooking up with him! ….Speaking of… I told a few of my guy friends (goofyboy and guybestfriend) that I hooked up with flirtyboy, and goofyboy was less than pleased. He said I was lowering my standards - which I don’t think I am! - and guybestfriend told me I had to make my own mistakes to learn. Which I agree with.. but I don’t think it was a mistake. They both told me the best option for me would be to find a fuck buddy but still hook up with random people. They both know I can take care of myself, which is good (because I can)! Random- I thought it was really funny how I told them:

Guybestfriend: So, what’d you end up doing last night?

Me: I went to [flirtyboy’s name]’s house.

Goofyboy: Yeah, she drank with other guys who weren’t us!

Me: Shut up, you know I love you guys. But nobody was doing anything because of stupid track GMCs! (*they were this morning, so the athletes didn’t want to go out after prom*)

Guybestfriend: Who was there?

Me: [socalledbeast, flirtyboy, crazybestfriend, me, and quietthut’s names].

Guybestfriend: Who’d you hook up with?

I thought it was great how he just assumed and asked. Even though that probably just means he knows I’ve been a slut lately… but whatever.

Tonight was a lot different than I thought it would be! I went to guybestfriend’s house with goofyboy, just to hang out and maybe drink a bit. We ended up going to this guy’s party… I smoked weed for the first time (I smell a lot like weed and cologne right now..) and I drank a lot! A bunch of people from school showed up (including shyboy, who I’m texting right now..) and it was a lot of fun! The last thing I want to do is become dependent on alcohol to have fun.. but for now I just need to forget my worries and HAVE FUN, because summer is approaching and a lot of my friends are graduating! Maybe I’m going through the “alcohol dependency phase” (as my friends call it) but I don’t really care, because I’m independent and self-protecting and strong. Also I love my friends and love going out with them.

Tonight I learned several things:

-My guy friends apparently invented this game last year, called “The Boob Game,” which basically consists of staring at my boobs - the one who stares for the longest without me looking at them wins. I have never noticed this (which made me mad at myself)!

-Parties, even with drugs, can be awkward - crazybestfriend came, even though two of her exes were there. We played “triple dog,” (which is basically like truth or dare (but with only a dare option, and if you refuse you have to do something crazy, in our case lick the toilet bowl). Crazybestfriend had to kiss one of our friends, and I could tell she was upset about it. So it got kind of awkward towards the end, but I left so it was fine.

-I have beautiful eyes, perfect boobs, a perfect belly button, and almost-perfect hip bones. My boobs have been a topic of conversation forever, because they’re amazing (definitely one of my best features, aside from my eyes), but tonight I got extra compliments even though I was just wearing a normal shirt. Goofyboy (who ALWAYS talks about my boobs when he’s drunk) tried to feel me up (jokingly!) like 20 times, even though he has a serious girlfriend (but he’s one of my best friends, and I know he does it just to tease me). They also wanted to take body shots off of me, but I said no (I have standards!) even though I have a perfect belly button (except for the scar in it, from appendicitis two years ago). And my hip bones are “close to perfect,” according to all the guys, but that’s only because I eat WAY TOO MUCH and I’ve almost lost my flat stomach.

-I am a sexy smoker. This was a unanimous observation - I look sexy as hell when I smoke! I don’t know what it is, but I do it REALLY well. Naturally. Especially when I’m drunk. I think I smoked more tonight than I ever have.

I was a little bit disappointed I didn’t get to hook up with shyboy tonight.. but that’s okay. I mean, he probably wanted to (he smoked for the first time, too!) but he left a few minutes before I did and I didn’t want to seem too desperate. Also, flirtyboy and socalledbeast were texting me the entire night.. they both wanted to hang out. But I was hanging out with my friends, and decided to choose my friends over random hookups tonight!

Fuck. I should probably get some sleep, considering I have to wake up early and then do homework all day.

Tomorrow is going to be a LONG day.

Baffled and Blonde~

Tonight was junior prom. Promboy came over to take pictures, then we went to my friend’s house to take pictures with a whole group, and we looked adorable! I wore a peach dress with a black belt and nude heels, and he wore white pants and a peach shirt (the colors matched EXACTLY). We looked so adorable together, since we’re both blonde and attractive. But the night pretty much went downhill from there (until much later).

Crazybestfriend ended up going with her recent ex (as we all predicted), but mostly just for the pictures. He pretty much ignored her the whole night. But about halfway through the dance, him and promboy left (they’re close friends). They’d been drinking at the dance, and I guess they left to go drink more. He told me he had to go home (obviously a lie - but I didn’t question it). That pretty much put a damper on the dance. I danced a LOT with funnyguy - we talked for a while and got really touchy-feely… He’s SO HOT! But he was really drunk.. so I felt weird hooking up with him again when I was sober. Also, practically NOBODY was dancing! It was bizarre.. I guess there were just a lot of nerds there or something. Anyway, the dance kind of sucked. At least I looked hot!

After the dance, crazybestfriend and I were looking to get seriously fucked up. I was mad because promboy left, and she was mad because her ex/date was flirting with someone else, and then left. So we went to her house, put on normal (low cut/tight/etc.) clothes, and went to dunkin donuts. There, we found a bunch of our friends (including funnyguy - we flirted but then he left) and hung out for a while. I called socalledbeast to hook us up with a party or something, so his friend came to pick us up. We ended up back at flirtyboy’s house - me, crazybestfriend, socalledbeast, flirtyboy, and their friend (let’s call him quietthug). We were just hanging out, the group of us, but I’d decided as soon as we got there that I’d be hooking up with flirtyboy. So we all took a bunch of shots of brandy (they dubbed me a “thug” because I prefer straight shots) and I got pretty tipsy (I’m still pretty tipsy right now). And obviously, I ended up making out with flirtyboy. It was cute, because he was using all these cheesy pick-up-lines on me (it’s an ongoing inside joke between us) and he started using the ones that required kissing as the punch line. It was kind of awkward, because crazybestfriend and the other guys were right there, but I don’t really care because we were all tipsy and having fun!

I know he just wants to have sex. And I’m not about to go and have sex with him - I believe sex should be based more on an emotional connection than a physical on - but making out was fun too! But turns out, now socalledbeast is annoyed because he wanted to hook up with me… (even though he has a girlfriend - but I don’t even know if flirtyboy is single, either..). He just messaged me a frowny-face…

Anyway, the point of this post is that junior prom was a lot worse than I expected, but the night ended up okay because I got drunk and hooked up with flirtyboy. Omg, I just realized.. he’s the first black guy I’ve ever made out with! (..Not that it really matters.. but I just thought about it). I’m still a bit tipsy right now.. but I’ll live. And I have to get up at 7am to get a root canal… FML.

Cheers,

Baffled and Blonde~

Today was a complete blur, and I have a feeling it was the beginning of a VERY LONG week. I have AP testing on thursday and friday (which I’m probably going to fail) so I’ve been stressing out a LOT. Junior prom is friday night, but due to the APs I’ve had no time to be excited for that! I did, however, just find out what I’m doing afterward (socalledbeast just told me about a party - he’s trying to get me to be his partner for pong). So that should be fun.

On another note, my crazybestfriend’s boyfriend dumped her the other night (the total asshole boyfriend - we all saw it coming). She falls for people WAY too easily, and then lets them walk all over her. He’s been really flirty with this other girl (for pretty much their entire relationship) and she was already mad at him, but then he just texted her out of nowhere and ended it. She was devastated, but she was planning on going to jr prom with him anyway (even though he told her he didn’t want to - but he felt bad so he would). He’s totally stringing her along, but she’s going with it completely because that’s the type of person she is. I hate seeing her this vulnerable - this is not the first time this has happened - but other than talking to her about it I don’t know how else to help her change. Anyway, we spent all of today trying to convince her to take someone else to prom. I suggested shyboy, who was going with one of his friends (a guy whose girlfriend can’t make it) and I think he agreed (if he could find his friend another date). My reasons for suggesting him were partially a nice gesture, but still partially selfish. Crazybestfriend and shyboy are friends, so I know they’d have fun if they went together. But it’d also be a great way for me to keep an eye on him! I mean, now that I found his new subject of admiration on facebook (and she’s HOT - way hotter than me!) I need to keep him close! Especially since I still like him!

I’m such a bitch :)

And I’ve got the WORST case of senioritis! I need to pull my life back together… I need to find a new boy, keep my grades up, and start caring about my appearance!

Time to start this,

Baffled and Blonde~